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The MFA Vs. Everyone Not a Straight, White Male

I am a black woman. I consider myself lucky that I chose a program that houses other black women, making me not the token for the first time in my experience of higher education. I chose a program that even has black men, and other types of people of color in it. I chose a program that has people in it who fight for the voices of marginalized populations as their daily bread, in and out of what they do for writing or for work.

However, even paradise (which I consider my program to be) has its flaws. I came to the program brimming with enthusiasm, and ready to write. My first fiction workshop made me self-conscious. I was the only black woman in that class. I, coming from a predominantly white institution for undergrad, have been known to carry the weight of race. I felt conflicted. I didn’t want to submit something for workshop that was urban or street fiction. I felt that gritty urban fiction was something my peers expected me to be able to come up with. Instead, I wanted to try something new. This challenged me to write a piece about love and marriage after miscarriage.

There were many times that I wanted to drop out of the program. I felt like I wasn’t being afforded the same opportunities. I felt like I wasn’t being heard. I felt like people weren’t actually reading my work in workshops. I felt like people kept asking arbitrary questions about authenticity because of my race. All of this happened in paradise. I stuck it out. I argued with people. I made myself be heard. It is exhausting always having to teach people. I don’t owe anyone anything. I don’t owe you an explanation about why your stereotypical portrayal of blacks in your piece didn’t wow me. At the same time, you don’t owe me an explanation of why you wrote it that way.

Also, I noticed something about literature. There’s a lot of literature written about straight white males complaining. Some of it is brilliant and some of it isn’t. I see the tremendous value placed on this type of literature and I see the way other works by people of color or non-straight people are separated and categorized under headings. If you are a professor, please assign some variety in your readings. I’ve been blessed again with professors who have inundated me with various types of literature of all kinds but I know that’s not the case everywhere.

Race, class, gender and sexuality are issues that carry a heavy weight. In my first class in the program, we were guessing scenarios based on dialogue in Playwriting and I offended someone. I argued that their piece was love between a man or a woman. She rolled her eyes and told me it was love between a woman and another woman. Further conversations with this woman have occurred. I told her that it was instilled in me, even as queer person, to think that love only happens between men and women. She told me that she felt that this program was very straight and that she was glad to know that there were more LGBT folk around than she had previously known.

There are things that are instilled in us from childhood. There are things that are institutionalized and relegated as normal. Ask yourself before asking someone if their memoir piece is realistic or authentic enough—why am I asking that? Is it because they are of a different race or sexuality than me? Ask yourself, am I not reading this workshop piece because it makes me uncomfortable? Not acknowledging these issues will keep these problems resurfacing. Colorblind is still blind no matter how you spin it.

Image: Zhu

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Sarah Francois is an MFA candidate at LIU Brooklyn. She resides in Brooklyn. She has poetry published in Poetic Diversity, Downtown Brooklyn, Brooklyn Paramount and Visceral Brooklyn. She waxes poetic on her blog and on Twitter.

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57 Comments

  1. Thanks for this. “I don’t owe anyone anything. I don’t owe you an explanation about why your stereotypical portrayal of blacks in your piece didn’t wow me. At the same time, you don’t owe me an explanation of why you wrote it that way.” We all need to make more positive assumptions about why people choose to tell their own stories the way they do. Loved this so much.

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  2. I will soon be starting an MFA myself where I will be one of the few if not the only latin@s in it. During my undergrad I cringed every time my writing would be workshopped. I would be asked why I’d have an opinion or write something my classmates thought was so un-latina of me. I strayed away from magical realism simply because I did not want to write what was expected but eventually I just returned to where I felt my vouce was.

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  3. Katherine says

    Not sure if this is necessarily the right area for this comment, but I’m looking into MFA programs now, and as a queer woman I was wondering if you looked into the diversity of your program before you chose it, and if so how you did that? Thanks!

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